Dec 14, 2009

Avon says

I had proposed to Brianna four or five meetings a year in various exciting and exotic locations: Paris, Istanbul, New Delhi; I said I'd cover all expenses and on each occasion give her a nice parting gift; and in between, I said, we could stay in touch by internet and phone every day. (Over the last several months I offered her plenty of emotional support and intellectual entertainment that way, which she seemed to appreciate, having no one else at the moment to do that). Now, you'd think a girl of her looks and prospects would jump at the offer. But no: she'd thought about it for a long time and at long last said that she can't meet me four of five times a year for a week or two; she needs, she says, to be emotionally involved for sexual intimacy to take place. That can't be quite true since she also says that what happened to us on her parents' couch was a one-night stand, she never thought it would repeat, and she was OK with that -- which all goes to say that emotional involvement is not really necessary. No, she admits, but she adds that for more, for anything regular, she needs to be emotionally involved. When I ask what that means, she names hugs and conversations; but what she really means is cohabitation: she wants someone full time, all the time. In other words, she wants -- everything. She'd rather have less of a man, less of financial security, less travel, less interesting life, and no gifts, but have that less full time; indeed, she'd rather take the risk of having nothing at all (as seems the likely outcome) than to have what I offered. How strange.

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